I come from a culture and an upbringing where it's always you before me. Where it's always them before I. Where you have to sacrifice your mental health for those around you. And if you do all this you’re highly appreciated. You’re a saint. This culture isn't toxic, but it tastes like acid when the … Continue reading Self-love in a toxic culture
How do I unlearn to love you?How do I unlearn to live with you?How can you so easily break all those promises you promised you would keep?Maybe time wasn't in our favor.Maybe love wasn't supposed to win.Maybe our happily–ever–after lost itself somewhere in our fights, somewhere in our desires to be more than what we … Continue reading A hurt/love letter
My dad has been my inspiration. He’s believed in me more than I’ve ever believed in myself. Yes we have our moments, but even those moments carry love and understanding. My dad is a very patient man. He’s had to deal with me, my tantrums, and my anxiety. I remember how badly I cried because … Continue reading Strained Relationships
Dear God,Why can't you just give me what I'm asking forthis light you see in me is losing its spark.Tell me, what am I supposed to dowhy are you breaking mewhen you’re supposed to pull me through?I'm losing my faith and yet you don’t seeIf you know I'm drowningwhy don’t you come and rescue me? … Continue reading Dear God,
It's when you’re drowning and you can't seem to floatyou’re trying to speak but the words are clogged in your throat. Your lips tremble and a tear rolls down your cheekyou’re supposed to be strong but every fiber in you seems weak. Your thoughts are racing at a speed you can't countbutterflies sink in your … Continue reading What is anxiety?