I don't feel hopeless. But neither do I feel hopeful. I feel nothing at all. And I don’t know what to do. I think the worst moments in life are when you feel completely numb. When your brain just shuts off to everything, including pain. Pain is good, because at least with pain you feel … Continue reading Losing the ability to feel
People come to New York with dreamsI came with nightmares. Coming to America wasn't all smiles and laughter and all those other soft and mushy things. It was more of crying, breaking and a lot of fear wrapped in confusion. There were a lot of breakdowns, a lot of burning bridges for the second time. … Continue reading Moving to NYC
Because ever since I was young, I saw the discrimination between genders. I hail from a culture that aches for boys and frowns upon girls. When a daughter is born the news is tightly sealed, as if it is something to be embarrassed of, and when a boy is born sweets are distributed and laughter’s … Continue reading Why I wish I was born as a boy!
Please don’t yell at meI don’t know how to reactjust take a knife and slice my heartmaybe it wouldn’t hurt as bad. I’m not as strong as you areI easily tend to breakyou can’t just throw salt on my woundsand say it was a mistake. I don’t know why I am like thiswhy my mind … Continue reading Destroying myself
I'm always prepared for every situation. You know how there are different dimensions in the world with different possibilities. Like in one dimension I'm might be a successful author, while in another one I might not have anxiety. I would choose the second option over and over again. But regardless, in my mind I'm prepared … Continue reading The perks of Anxiety