Depression is like an invisible demon that eats you from the inside until you’re hollow. It chews your mind like termites do until you’re empty. Depression doesn’t come to you with a warning. It slowly slithers in your mind and takes over. You become afraid of your own thoughts. You become your biggest enemy. Fear takes a hold of your body and it puts you in chains. Getting out of bed becomes a task that’s hard to accomplish. Looking after yourself becomes a burden. You become mentally tired and your brain gets all foggy. Things that excited you don’t please you anymore. You feel tied down by hopelessness and your body becomes a sponge that absorbs negativity and pain. The worst part is that you don’t understand why you’re feeling the way you are and because of that you start hating yourself. Depression slowly transforms into suicidal thoughts and you find yourself being pulled into a void you so desperately want to escape.
Depression is real and it’s not commonly talked about especially in the culture I come from. It’s frowned upon and it’s a taboo. It’s something that needs to be hidden like a sin. I’ve seen too many people around me wither away in silence because saying, “I’m depressed,” is worse than actually being depressed. But I’ve also seen people come back to life because they fought depression like warriors. And no it’s not easy. You might fall back into the void. You’ll get wounded. You’ll be in pain. But trust me you’ll make it through. I believe that you are strong enough to overcome anything you put your mind to. Sometimes you need help and that’s perfectly fine. Asking for a shoulder to lean on is normal. Requesting someone to hold your hand is okay. But just make sure the person on the other end is the one who will pull you through, not push you. Put yourself first if you have to. How can you help someone else swim when you’re drowning?
If you’re depressed, don’t keep your lips sealed. Ask for help. Scream if you have to. But please don’t stay silent. Life is too pure and beautiful to live in pain and silence.