Feeling empty…

It’s just one of those days where you feel empty, almost hollow. Like a part of you is missing or is yanked out by the events taking place around you. You’re trying to make sense of everything, but you can’t seem to do that because everything is just mashed together in one big pile. If you try to sort things out that pile will crush you beneath its weight.

In between this mess you’ll only suffocate. So, you leave things as they are in hopes that miraculously things will get better. But they never ever do. And that pile, of all those things you’re trying to ignore, just expands like gas molecules and you’re left wondering where you went wrong. You find so many ‘loopholes’ ‘ifs’ and ‘maybes’ that your mind starts swirling and the road ahead starts to fade away, and you lose focus. You see nothing but emptiness in a future that was supposed to be as bright as the sun. You see a dead end in a road you fought so hard to take.

I hate having these moments because I always end up confusing myself even more, and I make irrational decisions just to get out of this phase. It temporarily works but I end up drowning myself even more.

I was so lost in my thoughts that today I waited twenty minutes for an elevator before realizing I hadn’t even pressed the buttons. I was so dozed out that I took the wrong train. I crossed a red light and took the wrong exit. Literally.

The feeling drains all the energy out of you. It makes you feel like a useless dried out battery.

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26 thoughts on “Feeling empty…

  1. That feeling when all you wish is the human brain to have an on/off switch! No matter how you try it’s like an ongoing roller coaster! … But chill your life still needs you, you can’t drain your energy when you still got a long road ahead to run! Think about that! It’s stormy rainy and dark but does it rain forever? Soon it’s going to clear think about that, have hopes on that so you feel less and less burdened! Xoxo πŸ’•

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  2. Some days are like this. πŸ™ƒ I posted some similar thoughts the other dayβ€”hope it gives some comfort to you! πŸ™πŸ»

    Growingupsideways.blog/2019/04/30/fear-hope/

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  3. They come like a wind and knock you off totally. Sometimes its the whole day but sometimes its just some moments which leave you empty and hollow. I try to escape by reading something, holding on to someone else words and entering into other person’s world. Sometimes a spending some time alone in the laps of nature also help. But ultimate healer is your writing, I always write when you have these churning emotions. Big Hug ❀ Take care ❀

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      1. Yesterday only I started reading a very good book called “The Uncommon Reader”, its about England’s queen finding love for reading in her old age. Its a fiction but a very amusing and short read, you might find it in library πŸ™‚
        Reading you always helps me πŸ™‚

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  4. I’m so sorry you’ve been feeling like this. I wish I had some amazing suggestion to help, but I’m afraid I don’t. You’ve described how I’ve felt far too often very well; I find it frustrating after a while, like I’m going in circles and can’t get out, but it’s so utterly exhausting. It’s soul-destroying not being able to see beyond where you’re at but to only see a dead end. You’ve written this so well. Sometimes, remembering that you’ve been through it before, that you’ve faced challenging times and awful times in the past and have survived them, can help; you know you’ll make it through again, just give yourself time Β β™₯
    Caz xx

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  5. Hey! I just nominated you for the mystery blogger award. Hope you would participate!( Sorry if this comments is repeated but just I had to kae sure you know because the earlier one was not being displayed).πŸ™‚

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  6. It’s hard not to believe everything you think when you are down in the hole. Reading is a great escape for me as well; for me, it is physical pain, not so much psychic/emotional anymore. The best way forward for me is to be involved in helping someone else if the opportunity arises, and all those good ideas like healthy diet and exercise which seems out of reach and “who cares?” when you are feeling so empty. And yes, therapy as an ongoing support provides a mirror outside of the one you usually hold up to yourself. Course, I am biased, having been a therapist for many years before retiring. May the clouds part soon for you.

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